New tattoos and its going great

Lots of exciting things this week.  First, my husband and I spent last Saturday getting tattoos!  I already had a small one on my ankle, he had none.  He ended up getting a phoenix on his chest (pretty big for a first tattoo, I was so proud of him!)  I got the absolute most gorgeous dragon on my hip, and a girly flower/swirl design behind my ear.  We're going to go back and get a couple more in the weeks to come.  I love them so much :)

In other news, the diet thing is going pretty well!  This has been a hard week and I feel like I haven't made as much progress as other weeks, but I needed to lose 8.5 lbs by Feb. 8th to stay on track for my 150-in-18-months goal, and I'm at a little over 9 right now.  So, things are looking good!  I can't exercise for the moment because the hip tattoo is very large and taking awhile to heal, but I'm sure things will speed up once that heals completely.

Current weight: 349.2

Here's a somewhat blurry photo of the dragon tattoo:

Inspiration!

A woman on one of the Weight Watchers boards celebrated her one-year WW anniversary today.  She's lost 157 pounds in the last year.  And she only had 3 gains in the entire year too.  I want to be her.

I've been freaking out over having to lose 150 lbs in 18 months--but maybe it's possible after all!

Her story gave me the strength to eat a low-fat yogurt for a non-hungry snack instead of a package of off-brand oreos, so perhaps I'm off to a good start after all :)

I'm back!

Hello everyone,
After a long hiatus, I'm back!  A lot has happened in my life in the last year, including leaving grad school, moving twice, having a baby, some rather serious legal troubles for a loved one that caused my life to crumble as well, and a few other things.  But I've picked myself back up and re-committed.  And it's a little early to tell, but I think it's different this time.

Different how, you might ask?  Well, I woke up on New Year's Day and I was just...done.  Done being fat.  Done being embarrassed.  Done checking the weight limits of everything to make sure I can fit.  Done not participating because I won't fit in the seats/on the rides, etc.  I'll be 31 this month and I'm just done with this part of my life.

I know this sounds like what every fat person says at the start of a diet right before they fall off the wagon.  But it's been 18 days and I've been on-plan every single day, which is a bit of a record for me.  I feel good about it.

Also, I joined Healthy Wage, and a few Diet Bets.  My personal healthy wage will reward me with--wait for it--$7500 if I weigh 150 lbs less by July 1 of 2017.  That's  a lot of money, and a lot of weight--roughly 2 lbs a week.  I don't know if 2 pounds is sustainable every week, but the thought of the money has already had me making better choices.

I'm also back on mental health medication.  Right now, Lexapro and Wellbutrin.  The appetite suppressing effects aren't as awesome this time around, but the control they give me is--I can eat like a normal person without a massive eating disorder, which is amazing.

So everyone, wish me luck!

Current weight: 356.4